Taking A Walk...

Look at you,you're so grown now,full of life and confidence,you can make decisions on your own now.

Back then you were so skiny and vunerable,it's like the wind will hurt you; young,charming and adorable,me and your mum use to talk about you.

She thought we'd make a perfect match,in the years to come;true you were quite a catch,and so i dreamed along.

But then your dad passed away,life became a living hell,for you,your mum and your brother,besides me no one was there.

I made sure food was on the table,there was nothing you lacked at school,took care of everything necessary,for your mum and your brother too.

I remember how it felt on your graduation,you were wild with excitement,you looked at me with eyes full of appreciation,marvelling at my commitment.

We became so close,the world was beginning to know,as the bond between us,couldn't help but glow.

The day you got your first  job,we kissed for the very first time,we were going to push it a litte further,if nothing had interrupted.

But then i was on my way down,heading for the fall,i'd eaten into my very sustenance,i gave to you my all.

I had sold my house,my business went bankrupt,still i kept it from you and was doing everything i use to do,never for once did i stop.

And then you started getting paid,then it became increasingly hard for me to hide my reality,there were certain things i couldn't do again,and then everyone seemed to lost their memory.

Don't you remember me anymore? The one was there when no one was,who wiped your tears when you cried and asked "where was God?",the one to whom you professed your very love.

Now you say we are not compatible,cause i have no education,you talk to me like i was trash,you threaten to pay me off as compensation.

You introduced a strange man to me,saying he's your husband-to-be,and your mum has thrown in her lot with you,she advised i let you be.

At first it seemed like a bad dream,i thought i'd wake up from it,until neither you nor your mum would pick up my call anymore,i knew i was no longer needed.

I'm taking a walk...i'm leaving you and your dead conscience to talk,i'll forgive but i'll never forget,i wish you the best of luck.

I wasn't a fool,no i'm far from that,i will rather see myself as,that angel in those dark days,who was sent to rescue you.

I've purged my heart of evil and grudge,i'll start all over again,even though life has left my better self without reward,i'll put aside the pain.

I don't feel bad in anyway,i do believe in destiny,i've only learned the hardway,that you were never meant for me.