Inside my mind

Just tired of the muddle inside my head
Trying to heal
             Too tired
                So busy
Life goes on
Bleating in its mundanity
Quivering with restless heat
Mouldering with relentless anxiety
Striving despite depression
Tired of trying to wrestle the mess inside my head into submission
                 Obediently following the melodramatic, onerous dictates of society
            Telling me all the outward necessities of appearance for a
                            Good Mother
Too bad I could care less what that ubiquitous omnipresent they thinks
Their contribution to the buzzing disfunctionality inside my head
              And every time I try to disconnect, disassociate from them
           I'm roped back in
Because
                   They're determining things pertaining to me and mine
Jumping through incessant hoops
    No wonder their detritus is in my head
Not fair, I suppose, but ask me if I dare be rebellious
Nay
Pay the piper's price
Remembering another time and place and prices paid over and over in and out
              That's part of the fuzz inside my mind
What holds you back is You, yourself
However
              It is hard to move
                                       Difficult to find one's place
                      HEAL
                             trodding through the oppressive morass of other people's left-behind junk cluttering up what should be sacrosanctly yours
               NO
              (defiantly or desperately?)
Mine alone
My
                Precious. :-p