Empty

I don't know what I'm feeling. Emptiness,  a void?  I just feel numb. Numb to you,  numb to myself, numb to everything. Just numb. I don't feel a thing. Empathy, sympathy, apathy, joy and sadness ; those feelings are lost with me.

That's a lie, there's one emotion constantly stirring inside; fear.

I fear I'm becoming less human.  I fear I'll never feel again. My heart beats to keep me alive and that's all. It's all mechanic. Poor blood goes in, rich blood comes out in an endless cycle. Such a hollowed heart. Everything about me is mechanic. Everything about me is hollowed.

-PushingupDaisies