War within

You can feel the blade
Pressed againt a vein
The price has been payed
With blood and pain

My thoughts are no longer my own
You control them for your game
In my nightmares I can still hear
Their ghostly moans of pain

You called me a coward
For not openining my wrists
But when I finally did
You laughed and crushed
my still beating heart

I wonder if you could ever know
The pain you caused with those laughs
The damage you did with those blades
Or the havoc you sowed in my mind

Now the war within my mind
Is restless and never still
But you only act as if your blind
When I take that final pill