loving but never wanting to love

with everything i do
i do with love
which sucks
because sometimes i want to do it out of hate
you can not l love everyone
and yet i do
i care about everyone
everyone i talk to
everyone i see
but i wonder why i even do it
why do i have to be the good one
why i have to see someone and be the one you have to always be in my head
but it sucks
because i want to forget
make a mistake
and see that it was a mistake
but i see it as an experience to learn from