Breaking My Own Heart

Sometimes I want to just run away.
Why are these things making me stay?
I can't get over all the times I cried.
I can't get over the times you lied.

I keep telling myself that I'll be alright.
I just don't think I'll get any sleep tonight.
The thoughts bounce around in my mind.
I can't open the curtains they hide behind.

You just took my heart and ran.
You just lost your biggest fan.
I don't think I can take it anymore.
I just have to close this door.

I can't keep hiding behind the tears.
I can't let go of all those years.
The years when you meant the most.
The years when I had to let you go.

I don't know why it's coming out now.
I don't know why, just show me how.
You left me out in the rain.
You caused me so much pain.

Why do I still think of you?
Why is this what I do?
You don't know what you've done to me.
You should know what you made me believe.

Why am I sitting here all alone?
Why am I writing on my phone?
It's not like anyone actually sees.
It's not like they know what I'll be.

I'm scared of everything, including you.
I'm scared of the things you could do.
I break my own heart and I can't stop.
I break my own heart before I reach the top.

I try to climb, but I get insecure.
I try to climb, but I've been here before.
I see your face and it all goes away.
I see your face and it's another reason to stay.

I'm here and doing you wrong.
You're here and you're staying strong.
You're holding me close with a broken heart.
You're just giving me every single part.

You know, you don't have to do this.
You know, you don't have to kiss me.
I'm just trying to figure it all out.
I'm just trying to get rid of the doubt.

I need your help tonight.
I need you in my sight.
I just don't know what to do.
All I really know is I need you.