captured light

Everything seems to glimmer and shine
"Dont worry sweetie, you'll get better in time."
But inside I'm drained
Inside I'm detained
You say that everything is going to be alright
But where's my single sliver of light?!
You've said these things since I was young
You've taught me the differences or right and wrong
But my sun was swallowed and spit back out
I can tell you, I'm not better now
Yes I can smile and dress like your doll
But thats not me! It's not who I am at all!
It's true I dont mind the ribbons and curls and lashes
But sometimes I want to ablaze it all in smoke and ashes
I dont want to fit in the way you want me to be
I want my freedom! My voice! I want a choice to a certain degree!
But no matter how well or better ive gotten since that state
everything I do is wrong, scary, or out of hate.
Its none of those things!
That's just who I am!
As a parent you should accept me.
but your taste is on the other side of the horizon
and I fear your stuck in that place
im sorry mom and dad
but youre raising me to your fate
your daughter hates herself more than ever now
And yet she's dressed, as societies perfect, porcelain doll.