The Habit

When we speak of it,
do we know what we are saying?
Be it a pleasure cruise
or the long dank corridor
to hell
childish musings
and teenage invinciblity
brought us
to try.
We grew up
too fast,
simply trying all the while
to kill the pain
to end the fury
and perhaps
have a little fun
along the way,
but we always knew
in the back of blacked out
minds
this habit
could become a lifestyle.