Suicide Spoken word

Is this what it comes down to?
Dark hours and some pills?
The feeling of dread undergoes the chills,
asking god to forgive you for the long history of spills
is it worth it?Life shattering to the surface, life isnt just a circut,
everybody has a purpose, mandkind is unique in a way we can fight it, and endure it, were better than that..
What u have now is humanty, dont turn away from the beauty of life, we call that vanity, now lets be specific, becaus of something horrific, you want to leave out of human existence, but wait you have it twisted, the beauty of life vanished, would just make you a statistic