The Pain We Cause Ourselves

As soon as you told me that
I knew I was a fool
A dreamer among the all seeing
Blinded by my own light in my heart
I was silent when I heard those words
I don't know why
Something I hoped to never hear I guess
The thing was you never even knew
I just imagined you handing me a knife
But it was all me, I stabbed that pain into myself
I made that choice, you were just the one I saw
The unknowing participant in the stands
I wanted to say it was all for you
But what a fool
To be hurt by some words shared by friends
To still think its okay to care
To care, to think its wrong to deviate from a path
The truth was I hadn't deviated
Only to keep up that image, for no reason
Like I was trying to prove to you that
I was some amazing guy, it became a part of me
That part of me died tonight
The ignorance of innocence
Wrapped in a lie of bliss
No more shielding my eyes from the truth in front of me
How can one man be so wrapped up in euphoria
So caught up in something that doesn't exist
Like a frail glass it shattered
Landing under my feet to cut me
And the only way to avoid the pain
Was to walk through the glass painfully
Was to get away from it...