playing the fool

Im tired of investing my time into relationships that aint real,Playing wifey to nigguhs who just can't keep it real.Investing yrs in these situationships just to say i got SOMEBODY. WHen in the back of my head and the left side of my bed im still feeling lonely. Wondering is it just me,am i not good enough.Sleepless nights waiting up cuz he on the block selling me a dream about how he dwn on his luck and trying grind a come up..Here I sit stuck all because i wanna play ride or die bytch to a lying ass nigguh who aint shyt.Best thing he offering is some off the record side dick but tryna convince me im his only one..And shyt gone get better for us just believe him.Then he hits me with the forehead kiss to reassure me he aint going no where and i believe it..Down on his luck and i wont leave him,how dumb am i ...Playing russian roulette victim love suicide.