Lose myself

These thoughts in my head
I can't pause it
cutting in my bed
I can't stop it
you criticize me
fucking watch it
go back to your hole
you fucking hobbit
the floor is dirty
you look and flaunt it
what do you want
go fucking mop it
why are you angry
just clean the floor
why are you mad
what has caused it
 
well you failed me bitch
like a lass you lassed it
grew me as a fool
fucking half-assed it
I don't have to be big
to easily know it
nor could I ever
just work past it
I've been in my head
so much more
than you could acknowledge
I implore
fighting myself
like a soldier
in this never ending
fucking war
 
I've been in my head
too much for my health
using boring
lonely stealth
but you will never
understand
it's time for me
to lose myself