After Thought pt 1

Leaving was never option by the way
But as the minutes move along I keep on wondering why do I stay ?
There is obviously no communication to keep this relationship thriving
Despite the fact that it's the very key to unlock the happiness that could exist
Should I go Should I stay
I question this daily
And when I question you I receive a Blank I love you
There was a time you shed tears and spoke with life of how you felt about me
Spoke to the angels in heaven about your joy of finding me
Now it's as if I am just a stranger you often wish to banish from your surroundings.
Holding up photo booth photos cherish the moment that took place
Staring out of space wondering if you ever cared about the time that was spent.
I knew money was always your top concern
All the times I had it thrown in my face , fucking priceless
Could you ever believe all I really wanted was just you?
Your hugs, kisses, and words of encouragement?
My hands to touch your prickly face
Just to look in your eyes gave me hope
To smile back at you giving me heaping of faith
I use to think you were a gift
Today my thoughts are left with an idea you were just a possible lesson I needed to repeat
Curse or a blessing, not making sense of it all just yet