my turn...

what can I say      
you've really knocked me      
for a loop      
even though I begged you      
not to let the demons      
win...      
     
I hope whatever size bump      
I've left in your life      
will nudge you to the conclusions      
I've always known      
and said...      
     
you're beautiful      
very special      
and worth loving      
     
after reading one of your writes      
long ago      
I commented that you were worth loving      
you told me it made you cry      
I often made you cry you said      
with my heart felt comments      
on your work...      
     
I touched you      
like no other man has      
you started to crush on me      
and when I found out      
I fell even harder      
for you...      
     
I knew your troubles      
I knew it would be a struggle      
to get you to believe      
that I could be different      
I knew it, but I don't care      
     
I just didn't knowt      
or maybe didn't want to knowt      
it would be my turn      
to cry...      
     
I'm not mad      
and I'll always be here for you      
     
-katja      
            
     
'knowt' isn't a misspelling. it's something between us...[/i]