I love you without words...

I don't know when you'll read this, but I wanted to tell you...that you have become one of my dearest friends

And I would do anything to be there for you, like I would be for my dearest friends.

But I also feel...I need to tell you that, although you are one of the few dearest friends I have made, you hold a special part in my heart. A part of my heart I thought I knew, but you showed me there was so much more to it.

Your friendship is one that I cherish the most, maybe because it took so long to grow, or maybe just because you impacted my life so hard it has left a permanent mark. But not all marks are bad. You thought me to take chances, that it's better late than never, but it's better sooner than later.

You've made me remember that nothing in this life is given for free and nothing should be taken for granted, specially when it comes to people and feelings.

And I'm telling you, I never took your friendship for granted. And I know that your trust isn't free either. And that all it takes is a small step back to destroy any trust that is given

I don't know what will happen when I go home. I don't know what I will feel. I can't predict something when I have tried to keep my promises while at the same time trying to forget those promises ever existed because. I never forgot. I don't know if your dori memory applies to everything, but I wouldn't blame you if it did... I just can't ever find in myself to forget my promises...and if that hurts you, I apologize. But please, don't go away to "protect" me, don't cast me out of your life just because "I'm too good for you and deserve better".

You've might seen some of my "sad" fb posts...and they might of been true feelings, true thoughts that went through my mind...but there is one person that has the power to switch that. To make me forget about all my problems and pain.

And that person is you. I tell u that you don't hurt me, and we know that we've both hurt each other. But I tell you you haven't hurt me because, despite whatever pain you could've caused me, you are the one who takes them all away. With a hug, with a smile, with words that show you care.

I don't want to lose your friendship, if that's all you are able to give. And I value your trust too much to jeopardize it because of my own fears...