I am what they say but I will die on my own

Just let me go
Let me put the knife
deep through my heart
I can not love
But I do not wanna love
But I am ready
Reday to leave these lies
This life
I agree this world
could be better
with one less bitch
on this earth
I am a person
who loves to hurt
But now I think its time to let go
let go of life
which would
family friends and others
wouldnt miss
online love
broke me
but i gave no time
to repair
so now i am broken
I am not a slut
because you wanted
to leave me and never talk to me
it was three days
it couldnt have hurt you that much
but I swear i let you go
But I will go
TO heavens gate
at the end of this day
the knife will go through
the part which shows as a veil
but I promise
ill be the one in hell
while you live it up in heaven
I am dead and I am done