your absence so clear

when time stands standing.. and stillness adheres..
lucidity stretches.. stealing seconds.. even years..
left on looking.. sorrow conquered another frontier..
subconscious storms converging..  upon inner fears..
cloudy banks unfurling.. and demons past.. reappear..
darkness cascades.. thunder reaching touching ears..
curtailing passions.. forever changed.. now sneer..
evoking memories.. unchangeable actions.. cohere..
memories down pouring.. forsaken i earned my tears..
washed away a past.. a hurtful action.. so sincere..
soaked by this storm.. my love grows yet disappears..
for i have chanced.. yet what i've done will never veer..
standing still.. embracing time.. your absence so clear..