Zombie

My flesh is decaying
But waste no time delaying
Filling myself up
Decomposing mind's stuck
Craving on one thing
 
Only moaning; can't scream
I've given up my control
That empty hole
I keep ravenously filling  
 
Hearts I keep killing
Seeing I'm not really there
Disease doesnt care  
My vain infection spreads  
 
They see my dread
Guilt drips from wounds above
forgetting pleasure of
Gentleness, softness and love
 
Memories are swiftly fading
This obsession has me disintegrating
Your words drowning
I only hear water running

My exposed bones  
I can barely drag alone
In cruel darkness
But the night becomes gorgeous
 
Only living for feeding
Off those bleeding
Contaminated from what I've shred...
Coveting my ungreatful dead

*written to those like me struggling with E.D.