Suicidal

I can feel it
I can feel myself going
Myself leaving
Myself just getting up and disappearing
No one would want me here anyway
So why fucking bother
I can't even ...
My head is spinning
I'm lacking the normal
My head feels like it's a prison
I want to die...
Why is this
What's made me feel like this
Fucking dumb girls that's bloody what
Comparing myself to what I call a gorgeous girl who my boyfriend likes or liked I don't even know anymore...
I want to cut
I want to hurt myself
Repeatedly..
No one knows what's going through my brain
I keep looking for him..
Why!?
He's left
I keep looking
But he just got on that bike and went
I don't know where
And all I can do is turn around every fucking 5 minutes to see if he's there...
I don't know anymore
I just don't even want to be here anymore
Would anyone even want me around
Man I don't know what goes on in my head anymore
Fuck this
Fuck her
I hate her
I just
I'm just going to go somewhere
I don't know where but I will...
I wish
I wish
I fucking wish
That everything would just stop....
I can't believe this
I'm wanting to commit suicide...
Wow just wow
Fucking do it I dare you...
No one would stop me
Because now the only person I thought cared about
Just left even though I'm fucking hurting...
You know what it might be better for everyone...
No one wants me
Neither would I want someone like me
Goodbye ?