Questions

I was thinking today
Pondering on my own pain
And thought if it went away
What would I do with my days

I won't lie I'm born to hurt
Until it's time to leave this earth
I know this deep inside
Because there is no change in life

I dream of days that came and left
Feel like I must kill myself
I see the future and see nothing
Just wish my world would stop turning

Every single time I try
I always ask the question why
Why can't I be happy
Someone please answer me