I Was

Mother….
Please come back?!
I yearned for your touch
I would croak to hear your voice.
Why? Where? How could you!!!!
Mom why are you saying these thing?
Why are you damaged?
Where are you going?
Please wake up!!
Take me with you…at least
I curl beside her
And rub her cold blood on me
It’s all I have left
These stains of red marks
That will leave just like she left me
Alone…Endlessly
Ruined full of hatred
Two years later I was repossessed like a pet
They said that everything I lost would be found again
But they are full of shit
Something that is lost will never be found again
I will never love, care, I won’t show one ounce of regret
I will never abandon hate
If I did nothing would be left of me
And when I look up at the blank night
I would just be a lost cause
That’s why
I will never give into the motherly love
So you do my deeds and I’ll do yours
And when this is all over sketch the pain into my soul
So somebody will know I was