I dont understand

I dont understand anyone anymore I dont know what is real and what is fake .

I dont know what is the truth or what are lies .

i dont understand people anymore. I dont even understand the person who says they love me the most .

I am so confused by this horrible world. at times I just want to end my life but I know I cant becuse I must keep fighting why? I dont know anymore .

I am falling apart and I have no idea what to do . I dont know who or what to turn to just to pour my heart and my thoughts out . I dont know what to do I want to cut and just watch the blood pour from my body and just see it drip to the floor.

My head feels like its being split open. How can you say love me but at the same time ignore and lie to me? How can you sit there and act like you dont care when you see me suffing ? How is it so eazy for you to use me for what you want and not even care ?

I DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ANYMORE AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO !!!