Unloveable

Often I feel like I hurt the ones I love
often I feel when I get close, only disaster will follow

Feel like I can never have something that is meaningful
Feel like I cannot hold anything dear

I feel like I brake what I touch
Shatter the things and people that mean the most to me.
Imagine, getting close, feeling something
so wonderful that you have never felt before...
Only to ruin every part of it
Destroying all that made it beautiful

If I don't break it, I lose it.
Lose everything that I have cared for.
Afraid to love, afraid to get close...
If I don't get hurt, something has gone wrong
Ironic that I say that, but nonetheless true

I am unloveable
Sometimes even I cannot love myself
And that is why my name is Unloveable.

Of course these are thoughts that come and go
Never ending flow
Some days are simply better than others
But it is a fight that doesn't seem to end
A conflict within, I fight against myself
My own worst enemy
But I will never surrender
For there is  always hope
Hope for you and hope for me.