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Fires ablaze within my eyes,
A smile concealing all my lies,
Screaming, begging, calling out,
A final, frantic, desperate, shout.

Scarlet tears drip from each vein,
A vehement covet to end this pain,
This blackened blade stays by my side,
Because all hope inside has died.

As each day ends and darkness draws,
The Devil toys with all my flaws,
I'm helpless, alone, a worthless mess,
A broken child He must address.

I'm tempted when He calls my name,
A way out, an escape, an end to shame,
To make it feel a lot less real,
A deal with the Devil, in blood I must seal.

They'll say I died ov suicide,
But no one knows how much they've lied,
It wasn't a rope, a blade, or pills,
That broke my soul and gave me chills.

I died inside so long before,
To live each day - an endless chore,
Pills could not kill what was already dead,
A twisted soul, an empty head.

In darkness I wait, in silence, alone,
Rose-tinted nostalgia all around me has grown,
I beckon the Devil with the key ov self-harm,
And I open the door for Him, with the blood ov my arm.