The Last Two Days

Don’t know why,
I guess it’s because I’ve had a lot of thinking time,
But these last two days have been painful,

I was not doing anything in particular,
Doing some extra things in work,
Then sadness took over me,
And I nearly burst into tears.

I managed to hold it,
Got to my room and cried,
Properly cried,
And for me this is rare,
I’ve always said boys don’t cry,
And I’m breaking my own rules.

2 months on,
I know I should be over it,
Relationships break up all the time,
But I thought I had the most amazing person in the world,
And I guess I presumed that this would last forever

I know I need to be stronger,
I know that I still have a future and need to build it,
But I’m really struggling to do so,
All I can think of is how I had the best thing, best person in the world,
And how it was so quickly snatched away.