At First Glance

At First Glance

Beauty seeps into my soul
yet fear still resides
a different fear-
no longer am I afraid to speak
confidence boils up and I adore
"Your eyes I..."
but I falter
I can see at second
that smile it's like mine
facade for show
and the pain of knowing someone's like me
is breaking me
I run from you
but then I fear that you'll think-
I'm back but without you the room's cold
at first I see you
at second I close hurt to see
at third I can't look
epitaph reads-
never to return