Bi-polar murders

how many bodies have i buried in the shadows?
i can never answer that question
ill remember them all again
just to forget them again
their faces, their eyes, their tears
the memories of each kill
the taste of their blood finds me
it just makes me want more
i hear their cries for mercy
begging me to spare them
their hands trembling
hoping its a dream
but what they don't know
is im a nightmare to myself