Memories Web

 The memories of us hold me hostage;
  How I long to be set free.
To have all my pieces back
Instead of this empty shell
 When I gaze into the mirror, I see.
Like morning dew, glistening in first rays of light;
 I’m barely holding on.
Caught in the ghostly web of you, and all the everday things;
 We used to do.
Each mental image threaded together
   to ensnare my senses,
Weaving my thoughts around and around
    and weakening my defenses.
Remembering the give and take of simple things;
 Never realizing what they’d one day mean.
Holding hands, walking in the moon-light pale
 You gave  me comfort and your strength for a time
Yet you took from me my breath; for I’d never felt so safe,
  I now struggle to just inhale.
My head upon you shoulder, dancing in the rain;
You gave me happiness and joy to savor.
But as it happen, you took a piece of my heart;
Now with sorrows glue, I try to cope with what remains.
Simple pleasures; talking, laughing, sharing,
 Bit by bit you lovingly and tenderly gave.
All these thoughts I can’t seem to shake.
 In leaving, you took with you, all that I am;
With every glance, touch and smile;
 There was nothing of me, I saved.
I bow my head and mourn the loss of you;  
  so handsome, strong and brave;
I also mourn the loss of Me;
as I weep silently by your grave….