her day.

today, i miss you
not for your significance worth celebrating
but the outcome of today filled with
insignificance,
where you are hiding in the dark
and i cannot reach you.

i did not reach you,
and though there is a deliberate motif
in this new reluctance,
i refuse to feel guilty anymore
for being too exhausted to try
because no guilt or regret
can make the dim light surrounding you
shine any brighter.

but it does not stop the sadness from washing in.

it is a reality i have to learn
to come to terms with;
this light that surrounds you
is not ours to hold
for we have long been cast from it,
and no matter how brightly
it shines on certain days of the week,
you will always find a way to
hide yourself within its shadows
but i cannot walk you into the dark of it any longer.

today, i miss you,
and it is a reality i have to learn
to face,
where we do not live in parallel spaces anymore
so i have to learn to appreciate you more
you in your past, your pained present and whoever you may become.

today, i miss you,
and this will be a new permanence,
but i will forever hold this eternal bond with you
on a mindful pedestal
for though you are slowly
becoming one with the dark,
i will shine my brightest light strong and glorious,
forever in your honor.