Thoughts 24

Life gets dull when you feel too much
Then when it all stops you want it all back
The pain
The guilt
The sorrow
The anger
Then it comes back

I've been looking for something to lose
I'm getting tired of searching
Maybe I've been following my own tracks
It never seems to end
But what if it does?

Today's been like yesterday
And the day before that
And the day before that
Sometimes I think I've died
Sometimes I think I'm in Limbo
Can you want to die if you're already dead?

Had a dream about her last night
Had a dream she moved on
Had a dream she found another man
Then I woke up

I'm on my third beer
Still feeling
Still thinking too much
Still hoping for something to change
Waiting for that wakeup call

Tomorrow will be a different day
Painted in all the same shades
A copy with minor flaws and inconsistencies
Could have fooled me

I'll still be here
Waiting