Ever-after

Hate me if you need
It seems to be your heart
List my faults
Why can you not love
Is your damage too far gone
This is not a claim to my perfect
It happens to be true
My words are a bore to me
When they fall to unappreciated ears
When did you know
That I was not the one  
Where were you taking me
Surely your tease was overlooked
Too many times have you shown
Too many and I am nothing
I bail on worthlessness
Ask the birth
Watch me suffer saying nothing
My presence is my gift
Wy words are my plus  
Would you be impressed
If I turned from you
Would you be impressed
If I turned from my heart
The world throws my love in my face
Like I am to be ashamed
It is a cold eye from God
I am to suffer here
I am to believe  
I am worth nothingness
I should never have tried
Yet I'm glad that it was so
Wanting always
Never satisfied  
Do you feel this as well
Does your deserve not suit me
I cannot enjoy  
Washed into nothing
My body does not float
I am a weight this world can not consume
Tried in embarrassment
You held none
Refused because of presence
It did not matter to me
You always have
I waited for you silently
Then I spoke my love
Now it seems I am to wait again
Now your words are my drug
How you will hold them  
In fear of my addiction
As you always have
I deserve work
Teamwork satisfied by payroll
My image is darkened
Watch my shut
Imagine it is waste to me
I am willing  
It is all for you