When will it align?

The pain inside
it eats away
takes more happiness
everyday
I want to die
why can you not see
what it is
that is meant to be
I need you now
I feel so low
it has been years and hurts
and I still cannot let go
Do you still remember
our first
only, get together
why did you add me
why did you want me over
I am sorry I did not kiss you
that is something I would do over
I did not want your friend
You know I wanted you
I felt it
you could feel it too
I no longer dream about you
I wish I did
then I would know
I am not forgotten
and your soul is not dead.