Sweetsleep

they say they dont understand
i dont blame them
how could they understand

its just a nip here
a nick there
they wont know
they wont have a chance to cry
to yell
to give "tough love"

they can see my hurt
they can see i dont need their lectures
but still they talk
and talk
and talk
talktalktalktalk
all i want is for them to be quiet
for the world to go away
where its all still
where soft currents can take me away
not to die
but to sleep

they just dont understand
their noise cuts through my quiet
punctuated by bandaids and ACE bandages
they never just let the bad parts of me bleed out like they need to do
so much of me is undesirable
why do they still even try?
they even force me to talk
even when my voice is gone and words wont come


they saw my smile
i was happy
just fine
i didnt need their help
i dont need their help
i cant accept their help
im too proud
and too pathetic
too stubborn
too weak
too much of this
too much of that
to do much of anything but stare
and let their noise fade into the background and have the world finally quiet
finally stand still
finally fade
where all i need
and all i get
is a hug that doesnt judge
a soft kiss that doesnt cry
and sleep
sweetsleep