What looks back

I look inside a mirror and a ghost is staring back at me
Its hard to see but if I try will the world just throw it back at me
I'm actually
Just another one at the academy
You're mad at me
This life is tearing at my hearts anatomy
Actually
I don't want an apology
It's too far gone for me
To see the way our lives we live in harmony
This world is harming me
Reality
Nearing over capacity
The center of our gravity
The calling of our tragedy
I'm losing my morality
Casually
This pain escapes gradually
With this pen as saving gadgetry
The soul sends in the cavalry
Two forces still are battling
Destiny unraveling
Till then I keep on traveling
I venture through the galaxy
Running from catastrophe
Ignoring all the brutality
The Battery
Dying leaving apathy
Forgetting every strategy
Life is just one big analogy
Hiding it with travesty
Ignoring life with laxity
So tell me god I need to know  
What is staring back at me