Being

 
Sometimes just the act of being alive
is absolutely terrifying
Realizations come like a storm
Throwing everything I know
into the gutter
meaningless, tired, and absolutely
anti-alive

I look around and find my life
continuously, endlessly, ignorantly
judged
by everyone I know
Well...
I'm through looking

This is MY life fuckers
Are YOU gonna live it for me?
Are you?
The fuck you are
And to hell with letting your opinions
of how I should live it
direct my choices

I want to conquer
and then .....
PUSH!

then push further
to the absolute maximum of my limitations
of becoming
ME

I must throw all of you away
Not completely of course
(my darlings)
My love for all of you will never die
but ONLY....
 because it is mine
and my essence loves and delights in embracing you

but I must disregard, and discard
your "ideal" of me

for it is not real
It is a false me
and I will no longer
humor you

Now you will know 
You will KNOW

Welcome my friends 

to who I am