In the pleasure, I forget you.. not.

You open your door and see me in
Your needs I am here to meet, to spark that fire
You don’t really know me but I.. know.. you
Simple exchange, no need for feelings just physical desire
You don’t see me for who I really am
I’m your fantasy.. play thing.. whipping post…
In the pain I find release; hiding my nature from the world
But in the darkness, lust…duality plays host
It drives me crazy, wants and needs
By day,  I go about my life smiling.. while dying inside
By night you call and want me to come
I hate the way a part of me always seems to hide
I can’t be the sun that warms you, only the moon that enfolds you
I can only play this role that is so cruel
With the pain a pleasure sought and in the pleasure, I forget you.. not…
“I want you” “I need you” A need to follow every rule
I want what I cannot have…a friend, lover, something that will last..
Someone who knows me heart and soul, that loves to no end
Sees the darkness that I hide as well as my inner light
But all you want is literally a “fucking” friend…