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I Have To Say

It's... Complicated...


I wanna go,
to a place,
where no one
knows.

Some where,
that I,
can stay,
hide,
cry.

I keep hearing,
   each crack of
      my heart.
Echoing in chants,
   bouncing of solid
      dry walls.

The silence is heavy.
   choking the
      emptiness within me.
Capturing me.
   Encumbering me.
      Resuscitating me.

I want to hear
        the chirp of
birds.
I wanna hear
        three
simple words.

Some where,
      in this... tragedy,
is the me,
      I was suppose to be.
but how can I,
be the 'I'
     I was?
The 'I',
before there was an..
          us.

I'm furious!!
     My nose is an inch
           above water,
with beast like vultures
      waiting,
           watching
me in utter hunger.
You watch me drown,
and wait for the sound
      of a screeching,
           breath stopping,
              time freezing
    scream out loud.
and enjoy yourself with
           laughter.

The thing is
    you're scared,
           I'm scared,
Would you like me
    to write it in blood?
           Huh, 'stud'?
Do you like the scars you've
    burnt?
Are you really,
and truly satisfied
      by the so-called hunt,
that only you

    yourself

           are a part of?

I bet you wanna
     watch me boiled,
            in hot oil,
for knowing that simple
         truth.
You want to see me
suffer in
     amusement,
          resentment,
                bewilderment,
for knowing that
you love me more than


           I love you
Written by PsychicApocalypse (Darker Half)
Published | Edited 7th Mar 2014
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