Derail

I didn't realize I'd miss you like this
I ran away but still I have you
Your face shows through music
It makes it hard to fall away
You consume me
I wanted to be far from you
Now that your light is gone
I'm afraid of this darkness
And I'm sick of repetition
Never knowing my regrets
My life is exactly precise
Not allowed to make mistakes
So I only know what I can
This makes it stressful
To hold back inside
I wonder what you would say
If you can know my mind
Would it turn you away in fear
Or would you stand beside
I've never failed at anything
Because I've never tried