withdrawn from light..

the sun won't rise..
and the moon won't shine..
in this world of mine..
for the light..
truly to bright..
to a person such as i..
and words..
will never truly describe..
these thought i have..
these thoughts of you..
this endless cycle off pain..
that i go through..
which brings me here..
each moment i am awake..
alone..
and in true darkness..
once more..
in this place i do call mine..
for truly blind i am..
i miss every chance..
that god does give..
and i blame myself..
for i know my own doings..
and i know this true..
for i keep the silence..
to which i do live..
for i am here by myself..
yet not alone..
for i see you in my dreams..
and what a sight you are..
a sight to be admired..
a sight to be seen..
now that where my problem lies..
for my sight..d
one since gone..
so come feel with me..
it's all that i do..
all that i can..
it puts me down..
it explains so much..
yet still..
i wish i could hide..
from this blindness now mine..
if only for a moment..
it's all that i would need..
and all that i ask..
and all that i'd ask..
then you would see..
and so would i..
i would bask in the warmth..
of my new found light..
a light so true..
a light simply you..
but i know it won't happen..
i know this true..
for i lack the time..
the courage needed..
and every moment i give wake..
to the mistakes i've made..
and those chances missed..
is there no hope..
for blessed me..
never does it fail..
no matter how hard i try..
what approach i take..
i fall victim once more..
and end up here..
just dreaming of you..
and the things..
i could..
would..
should do..
but it's like i'm the fool..
at the other end..
of this almighty stick..
that beats me down..
to the ground beneath..
till hope is quashed once more..
if only i knew..
if only i had you..
if only I was able to see..

darkness, withdrawn is my light......and all hope for me.....no grasps of reality.......