Inside and Out

Did I ever do anything so horrible to you
to make you hate me so much?
Was I so oblivious and vulnerable,
that I was such an easy target?
Why did you have to make me feel unwanted?

Bruised from my heart down to my soul
broken a thousand times but it was never enough for you
You had to control me, and you promised me
that no one would ever want me
You threatened scars and lies and rumors
pushed me around and beat me up inside and out.

Did I ever say anything so terrible that I deserved the worst?
Was I too innocent and usable,
that I made pain so amusing to you?
Why did you want to make me feel forgotten?

Bruised from my heart down to my soul
broken a thousand times but it was never too much for you
You had to control me, and you swore to me
that no one would ever need me
You threatened wounds and scarred my trust
pushed me to the ground and never blinked inside and out.

I feel that no matter what I do
your words have left a permanent bruise
how could you hurt me like that?
inside and out
But I am healing
it will take time but I will be okay
in a little while
inside and out...