My dream of God's hands...

There are so many things that I've lost n found. And though I barely remember every touch, sight or sound...I know for sure You were always around, b'coz it was Your love that got me off the ground.

You were there every time I almost gave in to the pressure, you heard my prayers while in the emergency room laying on a stretcher. You got me through the days I was dead broke and again when I was a little richer. You showed me hardship and pain so I could appreciate pleasure.

Forgive me Lord, I don't know how to pray without sounding like I'm complaining. I don't know how to live coz inside it feels like I'm dying. I joke all the time, so I can keep from crying. Please help me keep this honest, coz I'm tired of lying.

I've lost faith and don't know if it'll ever be found. It's like I listen to Your world but I don't hear a sound! I'm about to snap, that's how tightly I'm wound. Please tell me if You want my knees, or my feet on the ground!? Release me O Lord, from this yoke to which I'm bound!

I pray for a new life n a brand new start, I pray that Your presence from me never will part. Thank You O Lord, for being my light in the dark!Thank You O Lord, that You already know my heart.

Sometimes I don't know what goes on in my head. I wonder where my soul goes when my body lies in bed. Last nights dream had a message, I just can't remember what it said. I do recall this, that in my dream I held God's hand! And I followed as He led.

I've never felt so awake, as I did while I slept. I awoke overwhealmed and uncomtrolably I wept! As the tears continued to flow, I remembered the message, and it was simply that you WILL reap what you sow, and find what you're seeking. In my dream I as held God's hand, I saw it was my life he was keeping!

We all travel as we sleep, I don't know where we all go. We sometimes participate and sometimes we enjoy the show. Nightmares come when we're embarrased that God really does know, but rest is assured when we place our hand in His...and He doesn't let go.

I don't know why He does it, and I can't explain how. Still, regardless of my understanding I rely on faith now. Last nights dream reminded me that although pain He will allow...fear is not an option because God is holding my hand right now.