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"Uhm, Hey Dad"

(Wrote this a couple weeks ago while furious, and it just kept spilling out smoothly. Here's the final product, & Disclaimer: It's a lot darker then my usual pieces.)

Fed up with the world wishing I could ascend
Wishing the lives of the mediocre minded would end
Despite the facade of a smile,
The last time I was happy, I don't know, it's been a while
Struggling just to struggle some more, what's the point?
Let chance decide the outcome, where's a coin?
Heads, off with my head, leave the lifeless body in my bed
Tails, tip the scales like my mind trying to get out of this rut, I failed
Dad, I hate you cause you weren't there
To wipe my ass or give me my first beer
King selfish should be your name
I'll be sure not to mention you on my rise to fame
Fucking fag of a dad that I wish I never had but I still gotta be glad
Why? Cause even though you weren't there I still made it, smiles I faked it, my mind and soul I shaped it, and these fucking thoughts I can't escape it
Mentally psychotic I lost it, put my heart in oven and defrost it, take all of the pictures with dad in it and crop it, tie his ass with no space mask to a rocket and launch it
Have me wishing I was Superman so I could hear your lungs pop
Have me happier then a flung sock
Or a pet rock on no leash, motherfucker I'm a beast
Hey pop, don't come near me, might beat ya face in and I won't stop
Cause this big bad wolf has come to use his claws
& All he has is his word and his balls
But when he's done you won't, we don't need any more bastard children brought into this bastard world
So before you be silly & don't wrap your willy and bang some new girl
Drop your pants, I'm gonna take this new bone saw for a whirl
I had no help but the help of a woman who acted selfless instead of selfish
While you were out being selfish instead of selfless
So let me get me reckless with these words and slice into your soul
Because dad I've got a lot of pent up anger, so to hurt you is my goal
I love you to death but hate you to life
I've been more of a man and I'm only 21 still looking for a wife
Father dearest, if you only knew how much of a fool you were when you thought you were being cool
As you slipped on the freshest of clothes, I slipped on the clothes I stole
As you've probably laid full at night
I've had some empty stomach fights
Piece of shit, why do I still call you dad
Piece of shit, sometimes I miss you and it makes me sad
But know what makes me glad?
Knowing I came this far on my own
Dad, your spot in my heart is a vacant hole
& to make it without you is my goal.