A long circular question leading nowhere

what does life contain when you are empty? what is the
difference between an emptiness that aches and an emptiness that
 vibrates? when you find yourself at the edge are you afraid?
 does the fear stop you from diving in? does hesitation make you
 fall back? is falling back safer than falling forward? is there
 danger in safety? when our ego truly dies do we keep living?
 when 'I' becomes 'i' has it died? should it or could it be we?
 is abandoning our attachment to freedom the only way out? is it
 time for me to commit to something bigger? how will i know who
 to serve? why do we teach our children being self centered is
 bad? if we focused on our centers what would we find? is it
 really a mystery? after emotions and desire expectations and
 regret-what motivates us? if we all stood perfectly still would
 the universe collapse? was life better before we were
 conscious? does anyone actually live without hypocrisy? what would be the benefits of trying? what have we got to loose? which is more important?