Coma

What the hell is this?
Words to make me shed some tears
pictures to shock my eyes
death of kittens to hurt my heart

My chest is full, a constant dull
not a pain, but not yet free of it
water spout is broken
a leak somewhere hidden within

out of nowhere comes
a whirlwind of happiness
what the hell is this?
my chest full of giddiness and smiles

energy to keep me going
love even, I’ve been feeling
the only tears that get by the leak,
happy fucking ones is all

wanting hugs and kisses
from my children too!
this has never happened
What the fuck do I do?

I’m in my own lithium induced coma
Can anyone hear me?
Someone hear my shout
and come let me out...

Before I say Goodbye to myself