my other halves don't like each other so I walked away

An animal with no control
life behind eyes with no parole

why not behind bars?
why behind eyes?
because the drugs stole my life before I even realized

a vehicle for a walking miracle of evil

Paradoxical, i have thought about what to do
about how to get off of you

the life that we've been through does not need a part two
I would not have made it through if it weren't for you but
the path that we seek is no good for me and we definitely do not need a part three

empty and lonely
alone in my misery
push those away from me that one day did care for me

don't get too close or i'll turn into a ghost
disappear just when we fall in love the most

leave you heartbroken and weeping instead of seeking wedded bliss
no thank you miss
I know I would love your smile for more than a while
but eventually your tears would turn to that of a crocodile

Am I an imbecile?
Or have I just been on the block
long enough to know that everything dies before you even realize the darkness lurking entwined in eyes
it's a disguise

I don't mean to be hostile but I feel like i'm on trial
it's not denial, this is a legitimate smile
it's been a while since I was beguiled
but now i'm on my own two feet
no longer suppressed every time we meet

I don't have to hide
I just step aside
and continue to thrive

still alive
by myself
I live my life like no-one else
I would be lost but I just found my own self wealth