An Angel

I’ve never known what to say, To make this all okay
I’ve never known what to be, To make this all pass by
I’ve never known what to let go, To make me live another day
I’ve never known what to keep, To make me live another way

I’ve seen my life burn down a thousand times, Outside my eyes
Though my eyes were opened, My hands were tied to my sides
Your hands held mine, Through a ghostly chill and an unknown feeling
As I looked beside me, I can still see you standing there

I feel so hollow, So broken, So bent, So far away from your warm embrace
I’m so far from home, From life, From love, From the family who calls my name
I’ve never been strong, But at least I once felt the heart beating within my chest
But today I feel nothing, Today I feel nothing, I’ve been searching for you so long

Mother, Hold me close, Forgive my insults and my ignorance
Father, Keep me close, Forgive my mistakes and my disrespect
Sister, Hold me up, Forgive my contempt and my anger
Oh god, Will you forgive me for what I’ve done, I need you to tell me you need me
For my soul is so cold, Sitting alone inside my lonely mind

An angel, I am told I am, A devil, I feel I forever am
An angel seeking his home, Heaven the goal and endgame
You touched my cheek, As a tear fell slowly down
“Son, you’re so lost, please, oh please, come back to us”