Against A Wall

the wall's cracked
and skies are black
and i can't think
because my head's
in a sinkhole
body's in the freezer
it feels like a blizzard
in the middle of winter
and gunshots blast
when life sells fast
nothing lasts
now i'm up against a wall
i can't see, i can't breathe
and eating's out
i just leave
my home is broken
but i don't complain
i've seen communities
gated and shut
and i'd lose my mind
my heart would rather be cut and blind
so i stay and rot
and pray for rain
and change and pain
or laughter, sadness
fuck, anything at all
but i'm backed against a wall
so what do i do?