Journal 11-20-12

 When I was a child
before the tv light / hit me
before the toxic smell / of new magazines
before the other girls started shaving their
legs / waxing off layers of themselves
before anorexia / before the rape
before boys / before him /
and him / and him / and him
when i was alone, a child under blue sky
hiding in the forever grass – what was i going to be?
what did i dream?
what path was i on?
how do i get back?