For Keeps

I touch the metal to my skin
Fighting the urge to give in
Wanting the blood to run free
But I'm held in place by responsibility

My beautiful child is almost two
For him there isn't anything I won't do
I fight with one arm behind my back
Hopefully he helps me win this match

Full time mom and full time shifts
12 hour nights make sleeping a bitch
I come home to a cuddle and kiss
He takes this hell and makes it bliss

How do I thank him for saving me?
Relieving my pain and suffering
An angel, so small and unassuming
Relies on me for his upbringing

I'm a broken woman with a shattered past
My heart is calloused but was made to last
I can't give up, my life isn't my own
I could never leave my baby all alone

I hold him tight before I lay him down
His sleepy smile erases my frown
I kiss his hair before he falls asleep
Forever and always, I am his for keeps