To Timid To Voice My Feelings

This deep passion set aside
I left you there with him
The feelings I thought I could hide
Are overflowing at the brim

I was fine without your presence
I became my old self once more
A lonely black concealed essence
Closing every opened door

But that flame is lit again
And I just want to see your face
To once more be called your friend
To be back in my happy place

The cry for sex is but a ploy
For him to keep you there
I would be your special toy
My emotions in your care

But I can't seem to find the balls
To tell you how I feel
I just want for you to call
And tell me it's all real

The spark I saw in you too
The promise of a future
Damned away but not by you
But by my vile features

To timid to voice my feelings
To shy to say I care
You stopped me from stealing
You couldn't leave me there

And my addictions stopped
Only to make you happy
My emotions cropped
My feelings oh so sappy

But to tell you the truth
Worse than losing your friendship
So tongue smashed by tooth
I endured this hardship

I miss and love you...